I don't know that I've read another piece that captures recovery in the way you do here. I'm at the very beginning of my third year, and like you, it's not new, but I continue to work through things. It's incredible, really.
Also, your commentary on where we are culturally with sharing all this stuff hit me hard too. The lines between myself and the outside world are more blurry every day, but I'm told it's dangerous to disconnect from my world.
Whatever you do, please keep writing--if only for you.
It is hard living an examined life. The benefits are that once you gaze inward the view changes on the outside. Your perceptions and your context all expand inclusively. The only thing that’s left on the outside is alcohol. Poor alcohol 😢
I had a I-thought-he-was-a-friend once say to me “I don’t trust someone who doesn’t drink.” I giggled and said “C-Ya”
Oh wow. I feel you big time!! About everything you mentioned. I’m 3 into recovery and it’s a strange place indeed. The pink cloud of newness is long gone. I’m bored to tears at AA meetings as most of the people there are afraid to grow spiritually. They just impress each other with their memorized recitation of the Big Book....and talk about how bad it was ‘back in the day’. As for social media; I’m at a crossroads there too. This Substack feels different than Facebook but I’m still gazing at my damn phone all the time. Well, what I can tell you is that the sharing of your journal and experiences does help me because reading your post today makes me think “man, it ain’t just me!!” There’s power in that!!! I hope you stick around but I also respect and understand why you wouldn’t....I’m there too!!! Be well my friend!!!
I don't know that I've read another piece that captures recovery in the way you do here. I'm at the very beginning of my third year, and like you, it's not new, but I continue to work through things. It's incredible, really.
Also, your commentary on where we are culturally with sharing all this stuff hit me hard too. The lines between myself and the outside world are more blurry every day, but I'm told it's dangerous to disconnect from my world.
Whatever you do, please keep writing--if only for you.
It is hard living an examined life. The benefits are that once you gaze inward the view changes on the outside. Your perceptions and your context all expand inclusively. The only thing that’s left on the outside is alcohol. Poor alcohol 😢
I had a I-thought-he-was-a-friend once say to me “I don’t trust someone who doesn’t drink.” I giggled and said “C-Ya”
Oh wow. I feel you big time!! About everything you mentioned. I’m 3 into recovery and it’s a strange place indeed. The pink cloud of newness is long gone. I’m bored to tears at AA meetings as most of the people there are afraid to grow spiritually. They just impress each other with their memorized recitation of the Big Book....and talk about how bad it was ‘back in the day’. As for social media; I’m at a crossroads there too. This Substack feels different than Facebook but I’m still gazing at my damn phone all the time. Well, what I can tell you is that the sharing of your journal and experiences does help me because reading your post today makes me think “man, it ain’t just me!!” There’s power in that!!! I hope you stick around but I also respect and understand why you wouldn’t....I’m there too!!! Be well my friend!!!